Wednesday, March 15, 2017

over a year has passed

Over a year has passed since

Over a year has passed since
We lay on autumn spread
Beneath our backs hugging
The fallen fading leaves.

A yesterday from which
I can't seem to esacape
Recurs innocuously, in today's
Transience surreptitiously,

When you and I secluded
Ourselves under casuarinas
That miserly let sunlight
Waltz on our hesitant hands,

A stillness engulfed the breeze
Prodding us towards uncertainty
We yearned for though
Dared not venture into.

I hear its echoes even now,
The quiet that lingered in between
The space which kept my fingers
From becoming one with yours.

I see the cursory glances
Which we both are guilty of
Flash in the recesses of
An unsettling remembrance

And I know that the things I felt
Weren't confined to me alone
For they whisper in my ears
Of all that could have been.

I close my eyes and take comfort
In this regret that somehow warms
Thawing the loneliness within me,
 With this hurt that harbours no harm.

As I quietly now look at you
In the classroom or in the corridor,
Your eyes dissemble to be oblivious
Of what persists now as before.

That day in paradise today is past
And I sigh as much as I wince
Every time you pretend you're unaware that
Over a year has passed since.